ideas, objects and LIFE -- self forgiveness

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to value objects over life.

i forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to see our collective disregard of life.

i forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to see that without the value, that is life, there is nothing else.

i forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to see that the word and meaning of value only exist from the lips of life.

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to dismiss the obvious needs of life and fix myself in an oblivious state.

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to value an idea in my head.

i forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to move from the only value, that is life.

i forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to see that the value that i give an idea, in my head, is not real.

i forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to see that, that which is real is here for all to see. it is not confined to my head like the value i give to ideas.

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to get swept away in the part and miss the whole.

i forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to realize that the flag is a piece of fabric made from materials grown from the earth. that is it.

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to attach a sense of entitlement and superiority to the flag. within this i disrespect life that is not held to any sense of entitlement, when we are ALL here.

i forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to see how the idea of 'the flag' is used as a method of separation.

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to attach myself mentally to a certain piece of fabric with certain colors or shapes on it.

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to hold the flag as superior to life.

i forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to see that the respect that i give to the idea of importance in a piece of fabric is misplaced.

i forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to self honestly define important.

i forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to have a real self honest look at what it is i place value in.

i forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to self honestly define necessity.

i forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to work on self honesty in all moments.

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think that because i was born on a certain part of the planet that i am worthy of a dignified life.

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think that because some are born on certain parts of the planet that they are less worthy of the same dignified life i would want for myself.

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think there is no way that all people can have the same dignified life that i would want for myself.

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think that we are separated by pieces of fabric here on this planet.

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to attach myself mentally to a certain piece of land as my "home land". within this i disregard the fact that all land is connected as home on this one planet.

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to create mental barriers between myself and other beings.

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to hold myself back.

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear my self expression.

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to watch a moment pass by.

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself think in my head instead of express within the physical with my mouth. thinking is not self expressive. its self deceptive. as i think in my head i am not here in the present fully aware and a full participant.

i forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to see that it isnt a thought that produces but physical movement within participation here. in the physical. u cannot think oneness and equality into existence. it must be lived and expressed and not held back.

i forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to realize the importance of developing self trust to be able to move through any and all given moments with clarity.

i forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to realize that even if i may fall, i still must walk.

i forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to trust myself to express myself.

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear expressing myself.

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to react in anger. towards the disregard of life, but it was anger. from within anger as a starting point comes nothing good. period. self movement to stand up to the disregard of life must be from a place of self trust, stability and clarity. anger brings none of those things.

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear friction. fear creating friction within a disagreement. fear of being unwilling to move self within the unwillingness of another to see what i am trying to express.

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from another. like i have not displaying the same disregard towards life.

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing an hesitant nature within myself when it comes to "what needs to be done".

i commit myself to not hold back my self expression.

i commit myself to move myself within all moments.

i commit myself to breathe when i sense myself existing as back chat and bring myself back to real. to here in the physical.

i commit myself to develop patience within my movement. stability within expression comes with patience.

i commit myself to not fear the destruction of an idea. as an idea, is not real.

i commit myself to stand up for life.

stifling, discouragement and selective assistance

i really enjoy dance :)

self expression in general and in many different forms, but dance in particular. there are so many different ways to explore space and move the human physical form. so its really cool to watch parts of the whole of expression, express themselves :).

there is a show that i have been watching for years called 'so you think you can dance'.

its about dancers that come from all around the world to compete on this show to win a dance contract and of course, some money. throughout the show they dig into many of the peoples lives a bit and give context to the starting point of much of the expression that is being expressed as dance. which is cool.

now there are people who come to audition who many would say "cant dance". dance is really just movement when broken down. and movement is expression and expression is pretty fucking beautiful :)

when people "cannot dance" on this show they are not broken down. i have seen when someone is deliberately acting a fool to get attention from a tv show and they are called out on it. but the people are not made a fool if they are not a technical dancer. there was a dancer who came to audition who commented that he was upset with the way the show acted. he did not like that they enjoyed themselves with people who "couldnt dance" and let them perform their self expression. and that it was in insult to "real dancers". this was obviously the ego of a disconnected being who thought their self expression was in some way above the expression of others. its a shame that we beat one another down in order to build self up. this is not movement. this is not self appreciation. this is chaos.

we toss people aside often. this is a point i noticed within the show 'biggest loser'.

this show capitalizes on the downfall of our collective health as people. it makes weight loss an elitist circle. makes saving the life of an obviously unhealthy body into a game. it first gets many people who are unhealthily over weight together. then it makes these people compete to even be on the show to get what they consider "help that they all need". they make these people compete and apparently whoever "wants it" (< to be on the show ) more will get to get the help.

okay, i understand the importance of self movement and being the will that moves our physical bodies that creates the physical world. i understand that we are use to competition as "the way we move" and "from where we move" for a very long time. i understand that we have built importance and need around our idea of reward/punishment. 'do this good enough, get that. dont do this good enough, dont get that.'

what i dont understand is the fact that we are overlooking the point that ALL these fucking people need help. and it is displayed that we clearly see that ALL these fucking people need help. why not simply HELP ALL THESE FUCKING PEOPLE GET THEIR SHIT TOGETHER SO THEY CAN SUPPORT THEMSELVES PERIOD? make that what this what this whole oopla is about.

and then many people say, "well people would not want to PAY to see someone who could not sing or could not dance or is not being followed around by a camera but losing weight." self expression, enjoyment, happiness, health - we make all thing dependent on money. having it, keeping it, getting it, using it.. the money motivator is one that should be dug unto for ones self to self honestly see what is actually within this point of money. which are seeds of greed and self interest and of course, fear.

to investigate bringing money to a point which reflects a core of oneness and equality and consideration for all life >www.equalmoney.org